Pushing 300# June 2011 -- 1 month prior to returning to Genesis...... 6 months prior to becoming a Group Fitness Instructor
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-For the uninitiated, Group Centergy is yoga + pilates put to music.
The struggles I was facing prior to joining the Genesis Health Clubs McPherson team seem laughable now. I should have opened up to my inner circle long ago. Big problem was that I attended Group Centergy training in February 2013 with the attitude of "Maybe I'll be good enough to be the sub for another instructor one day". Yeah. That thinking was never going to get me anywhere. I would have been thrilled just to sub and to teach a track or 2 every 3 months in our Group Centergy launches. Sure was setting the bar low. Low self esteem rearing its ugly head again.
Happy that I never considered quitting Centergy.... I kept buying the releases.... but I had less and less faith about getting my own class as the months passed.
I kept waiting for some healthy anger to kick in.... after all, it was self loathing and self rage that brought me back to Genesis and had me fighting to find my calling in life, teaching classes.
The anger never kicked in. Just didn't have it in me concerning Centergy. I kept telling myself I would practice hard each day, but didn't start doing so until a door opened for me in McPherson. New place. New team. I left my baggage behind.
Hand in hand with officially joining the McPherson team came being asked to bring Group Centergy to McPherson. Boom. Did I need a bigger excuse to practice relentlessly?
Helped a lot to be teaching R30 as well. R30 forces me to work more on my coaching skills and ease back a little on my drill sergeant approach in my other bike classes. My drill sergeant voice isn't even allowed in the studio when I teach Centergy.
I zeroed in on the day I was to teach a Group Centergy demo class to some Genesis employees in McPherson. I felt I did well, but was blown away by the responses of my peers. Wasn't even a hint of doubt that I was ready.
The classes since then have been amazing. Negative voices from my past have been silenced. Lots and lots and lots of work ahead, but I am improving every week and my confidence has gone through the roof thanks to my students.
What lies ahead is to continue working hard on form, coaching and learning programming (I feel it takes me far too long to learn each track) ....experience is going to help in all 3 areas.
My words can't do justice to what it feels like to have my own Group Centergy classes. Have to admit I LIKE MYSELF an awful lot teaching Centergy. My message needed to be heard : ANYONE CAN DO CENTERGY. I had an internal struggle for a long time about not being good enough. Perhaps in 2014 it was time once again for the benchwarmer to take charge and bring passion and determination to the game.
Said I wasn't going to mention names, but THANK YOU to Becky Holcomb and Heather Koehn for believing in me and being so supportive.
To my students..... it is only going to get better. Thank you for your hard work and shared love of Centergy!
19# lighter than when I started practicing Centergy every day. Total body workout offered by Centergy helps, but the psychological benefit of Centergy is far greater. Happier = much easier to eat right. Happier = goal crushing mode.